The final Confession

The moon was all aglow and heaven was in your eyes

The night that you told me those little white lies.

The stars all seemed to know that you didn't mean all those sighs

The night that you told me those little white lies.

I try but there's no forgetting when evening appears,

I sigh but there's no regretting in spite of my tears.

The devil was in your heart but heaven was in your eyes

The night that you told me those little white lies.

Who wouldn't believe those lips

Whoever could doubt those eyes

The night that you told me those little white lies.

The Lonely Winter Night

Late at night when all the world is sleeping

I stay up late and think of you 

I make wish to a shooting star

That somewhere you are thinking of me too

Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight

Till tomorrow I'll be holding the dreams tight

And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be

Than here in my room dreaming about you and me

Wonder if you ever think of me and 

If you looked in my eyes

would you see what's inside

Would you even care

for how long I'v been there

I just wanna talk to you

I just wanna be with you

All I have are dreams of you

So I wait for the day and the courage to say

How much I miss you how much need you

Wonder if I'll ever see you again

Be it my mind or the never ending terrains

now when i m sitting alone and write

i wish i had asked you out that night

But no point dreaming and regretting of past

i now have all the feelings pouring in my heart

would never replace anyone for you

coz seldom are angels found they are very few

I just pray 

that tomorrow be the day 

when you will be mine in a castle or hay

from day to night and night to day

forever and ever from today 

Into the beautiful world

Cant express my happiness when I see myself living this life in a surprisingly cheerful way. All the way from India here I am in Malayisa celebrating my 22nd birthday. Never thought I'll go out of India, let alone the thought of celecrating b'day. But still some unseen dreams have come true and i m living them. Away from the family but never felt so close to them. The freinds who irritated me back home, get a smile on my face when i think of them. 
                    All those years when I had parties on this day, i thought i'll be missing them but to my surprise i never felt so satisfied before. For last 22 years every day i was thinking what will i be, what would i do, will i be able to achieve something or like countless, aimless people i'll spend my life without doing anything, without any "lakshya"? But, now i know, i have journey to make, i have a destination to reach. Within ten years i'll be a chief on a ship. Making my way to countless destinations through the most calm and the most devastating thing "water". But its exciting, exciting coz i'll be going to countless destination, meeting countless people, earning "countless" money, but most importantly i'll see my self "working".            

Miss my dear ones "angels"

Cant stop thinking of my days in "heaven" when i see my self lost in this "hell". Miss the lovely "angels" of that place when i c myself surrounded by the devils here. I know i cannot get back that time but still the optimist in me believes that someday i will find the people that matter the most in my life who are my angels and will get me out of this hell. I can feel that it is not too far when i'll be set free and i will smile again from my heart and my eyes will have that glim back and shine like a star.